I have been reading Stressed-Less Living by Tracie Miles with Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies with Melissa Taylor. Today, we were asked if we would share a time when we were at a breaking point and God intervened, rescued, healed and restored. I thought this story was a perfect example a time God rescued me. I hope it encourages you today...
It was a Sunday. The sunlight beaming between the blinds shed light
on the darkness of my reality. Where was I? I did the thing I told
myself I would never do again...again. No more.
WHEN HE CAME TO HIMSELF, he said, 'How many of my father's hired
servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! I
will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, "Father, I have
sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be
called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants." Luke 15:
That morning I "came to [my]self". I knew I
couldn't continue to live in the pit. I was perishing of hunger. Only
it wasn't the hunger of a physical kind. I was perishing spiritually
and heading down the path to complete destruction. I reached bottom
that day. I arose and went searching for my Father, my heavenly
The year was 1995 and I was a Junior in
college. It was the beginning of finals week at the University of
Illinois. I ran that morning from church to church searching for
someone who could help me. I ran and I ran. Church to church to
church. Nothing. No one. Church had already let out. No one was
there. Was there no one who could help me? Crying in desparation, I
asked God, "God, please help me."
I ran to the
farthest church I knew of on campus. It was close to my Freshman dorm.
I had visited it once while a Freshman. That seemed ages ago. I found
someone who would listen to me. They called a senior girl from their
college group and asked her if she could talk to me. It was finals week
and I know she needed to study, but I am forever grateful that she took
some time out of her studying to talk to me. I wish I knew her name.
listened, she advised, and she prayed with me. I knew I could not keep
living in the same self-destructive way I had been living. I felt so
unworthy of love of any kind--God's love or man's love. She spoke words
of truth and grace. She doesn't know it, but she saved this soul from
death by her words of grace. I hope God will arrange for us to meet in
heaven so I can give this girl who gave up a Sunday of studying during
finals week to help free a girl from the depths of hell a proper thank
She helped lead me back to the cross, back to grace, back to Christ, and back to my Father.
he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off,
his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and
kissed him. And the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against
heaven and in your sight, I am no longer worthy to be called your son.'
But the father said to his servants, 'Bring out the best robe and put it
on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet. And bring
the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this
my son was dead and it alive again; he was lost and is found.' And they
began to be merry." Luke 15:20-24
streaming down my face as I read the verse above. Not only was I
running toward God that day...God ran toward me. He was there with me
all along. He never left me and never gave up on me. When I came to
Him, He hugged my neck, kissed me and rejoiced that His daughter had
I felt so unworthy to be called His child,
but He said, "Bring the best robe...put a ring on [her] hand and sandals
on [her] feet."
He took my old dirty rags full of sin
and replaced them with "garments of salvation" and "a robe of
righteousness" (Isaiah 61:10). Not only did he cover me with a robe of
righteousness, he has since given me the fatted calf as well. God has
restored my life and has done above and beyond all I could ever ask or
think. His blessings overwhelm me. I know the pit I was in and I weep
at the thought of our Father's never-ending love and grace. Oh Lord,
that you would love me even in my sin and rescue me from my pit of
destruction!!! My heart rejoices and I am forever grateful!
you in a pit today? Are you hungry and thirsty spiritually? Arise!
Run to Him! You will find Him. He has already found you. Although you
may feel unworthy, God says you are worthy. He has a robe, a ring,
sandals, and a fatted calf await you.
Thank you for sharing this!!!♥ReplyDelete
Sue -your story is gorgeous. It drips Grace and Love and Healing. Thank you for pouring your heart out here, so that we could be reminded how much we need God and how ready He is to come running when we call!ReplyDelete
This is beautiful. I've got a feeling He'll let you meet that girl and let her know just how much her showing you His grace meant. Blessings to you, sweet sister!ReplyDelete
Thank you all! Lauren, I agree, if not this side of heaven, then when we get there. :)ReplyDelete