Thursday, September 12, 2013

A Heart At Rest - #ISaidYes

My husband and I are in a transitional period in our lives.  God has brought many changes into our lives over the past several months.  Some we had no control over.  However, there was one in which we had to decide if we would say, "Yes Lord" with total abandon and step out into the unknown.  We knew the Lord was leading us and even though we knew it would be hard, we said:  Yes.

Over the past couple of months I have looked back at that decision to say yes.  It has been harder than I could have possibly imagined.  My emotions have fluctuated in response to the reactions around me.

When we make a decision to say "Yes" to God, there will no doubt be opposition from those who don't understand.  And,  how can I expect them to understand when I don't completely understand it myself.

I was looking back and concerned about what others thought about me and about our decision.  I was looking forward wondering if I would ever know why or see the positive outcome of obedience.

My emotional reactions indicated only one thing:  A lack of trust.

A lack of trust that we indeed heard from God. A lack of trust that our ever-loving Creator, the one who forms the stars and commands the seas, was leading us safely to the new land He has for us.

I didn't fully realize my reactions were a lack of trust until the other day.  Tears barged through their ducts and it seemed no amount of effort could stop the flow.  Again, I cried in desperation, "Lord help me."  God brought comfort in an unconventional, but totally God-way.  He challenged me...

He reminded me of the Israelites and how they did not trust Him to lead them safely to the promise land.
They accused God of leading them into the wilderness to die.  They groaned and complained.  They could not physically see their destination out in front of them, so they walked blinded by unbelief and doubt.  It was because of their lack of trust in the Lord that they wandered around the wilderness for forty years when it should have only been an eleven day journey. (Deuteronomy 1)

Then He said,

 "Sue, I know you can't see where you are going.  But, I am asking you to trust me.  Trust in My goodness.  Trust in My provision.  Trust in My love.  I have told you I am doing a new thing.  Shall you not know it?  It will spring forth!  I will make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." (Isaiah 43:19)

He told me back in April that He was doing a new thing.  Isaiah 43:18-19 has been a life-line of comfort and peace to me.  He gently reminded me of it once more.

"Road in the wilderness" - A road is a clearly marked path.  He will lead us safely and show us the way.
"Rivers in the desert" - A river is a stream of life, refreshing, and full of abundance.

After God spoke to me the other night, I realized I had a decision to make.  A decision that leaves no room for vacillation.  I had to decide if I would say yes to the questions God was asking.  I said "yes".

Yes God, I trust you.  Yes God, I trust in Your goodness.  Yes God, I trust in Your provision.  Yes God, I trust in Your love.  Yes.

I said Yes and because I did, my heart is at rest.


  1. wow I felt God lead me to read the post that was number 25 for my birthdate! ;) I noticed your photo before I noticed the number - yours was #25! Our stories have so much similarity!! I am amazed. Not sure if God wanted me to be encouraged or to encourage!! Thank you for writing and sharing!! I love that you are saying #yestoGod!!!!

  2. Love this. Sue, I pray for your journey of yes saying to bring many blessings and return a stronger trust and faith in God's plan!!

  3. Thank you Sue. Praying for you two as you make all these decisions and say Yes. Love you sister. Debbie W. (OBS Facebook Group Leader)

  4. Sue, you just describled my storey for the last few months. I FINALLY SAID YES LORD, today is two weeks ago. I have had conformation after conformation that is was THE RIGHT THING TO DO. But, like you, I wander if I will ever see the fruits and reason this side of heaven. IT HURT SO BAD TO DO IT....and I can deal with my pain so much better than I can deal with the pain that I caused someone very dear to me. BUT AGAIN I KNOW IT WAS GOD'S WILL...I too have tried so hard NOT TO QUESTION because I DO TOTALLY TRUST HIM. SOMETHING GOOD HAS TO COME OUT OF THE PAIN. I HAVE PEACE, but it still hurts. AND MAKES NO EARTHY SENSE. But everyday I say I TRUST YOU, LORD. I want HIM to be LORD OF MY LIFE NOT JUST LORD IN MY LIFE....THANK YOU fo sharing....I really NEEDED THIS TODAY!!!

  5. Sue, I to have said, "Yes to God" and then opposition set in. But I've learned to say "I am valuable" and "I love myself". This is amazing as looking back at my journal 2 years ago I said, "I like myself".

    I have a past like yours and many other traumatic events starting at age 5. Not knowing Jesus until my 8 year old daughter in VBS 22 yrs ago. Jesus saved me and has brought healing and true love to me a 55 year old Nana. Again my daughter has brought me to a new healing in Christ by sending me your blog. Thank you for stepping out and saying "yes to God" and bring healing to generations of women. I thank God for loving me and my girls, my husband, family, and church for standing with me as I to have spoken to other women of Jesus love and healing grace.

    Father I thank you for Sue and all women who say "yes" and step out in "faith" to do all you've called us to do. Bless Sue and her family. In Jesus name. amen

  6. I treasure all your comments. Thank you so much for all your words of encouragement today. I am so thankful for how the Lord used this in your lives today. With love, Sue :)

  7. Thank you for trusting in the One Who is faithful and encouraging us all to do the same!

  8. Such a great post! The enemy loves to play with our mind, but what the enemy meant to harm you God used for your good! Love ya!

  9. I'm sorry that you are struggling, but BRAVO to you for saying "yes!" It is NOT easy when we don't have our crystal balls, but I think God is using this as a teaching tool and you will see good on the other side!


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