Thursday, September 12, 2013
A Heart At Rest - #ISaidYes
My husband and I are in a transitional period in our lives. God has brought many changes into our lives over the past several months. Some we had no control over. However, there was one in which we had to decide if we would say, "Yes Lord" with total abandon and step out into the unknown. We knew the Lord was leading us and even though we knew it would be hard, we said: Yes.
Over the past couple of months I have looked back at that decision to say yes. It has been harder than I could have possibly imagined. My emotions have fluctuated in response to the reactions around me.
When we make a decision to say "Yes" to God, there will no doubt be opposition from those who don't understand. And, how can I expect them to understand when I don't completely understand it myself.
I was looking back and concerned about what others thought about me and about our decision. I was looking forward wondering if I would ever know why or see the positive outcome of obedience.
My emotional reactions indicated only one thing: A lack of trust.
A lack of trust that we indeed heard from God. A lack of trust that our ever-loving Creator, the one who forms the stars and commands the seas, was leading us safely to the new land He has for us.
I didn't fully realize my reactions were a lack of trust until the other day. Tears barged through their ducts and it seemed no amount of effort could stop the flow. Again, I cried in desperation, "Lord help me." God brought comfort in an unconventional, but totally God-way. He challenged me...
He reminded me of the Israelites and how they did not trust Him to lead them safely to the promise land.
They accused God of leading them into the wilderness to die. They groaned and complained. They could not physically see their destination out in front of them, so they walked blinded by unbelief and doubt. It was because of their lack of trust in the Lord that they wandered around the wilderness for forty years when it should have only been an eleven day journey. (Deuteronomy 1)
Then He said,
"Sue, I know you can't see where you are going. But, I am asking you to trust me. Trust in My goodness. Trust in My provision. Trust in My love. I have told you I am doing a new thing. Shall you not know it? It will spring forth! I will make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." (Isaiah 43:19)
He told me back in April that He was doing a new thing. Isaiah 43:18-19 has been a life-line of comfort and peace to me. He gently reminded me of it once more.
"Road in the wilderness" - A road is a clearly marked path. He will lead us safely and show us the way.
"Rivers in the desert" - A river is a stream of life, refreshing, and full of abundance.
After God spoke to me the other night, I realized I had a decision to make. A decision that leaves no room for vacillation. I had to decide if I would say yes to the questions God was asking. I said "yes".
Yes God, I trust you. Yes God, I trust in Your goodness. Yes God, I trust in Your provision. Yes God, I trust in Your love. Yes.
I said Yes and because I did, my heart is at rest.